Moon Over Maui

A Jewish Mystical Journey through the Year

Tammuz Heats Up

Written By: Jueli Garfinkle - Jul• 07•11

The new moon Tammuz crested in the sky four days ago (see photo in posting below). Today, however, I felt the inner affects of the Tammuz heat burn against my tender heart. Death pulled its card on two of my dear friends. Neither of them willingly summoned this indiscriminate power: one sits in the final hours of her mother-in-law’s physical life; the other is fighting for triumph with chemicals, blood transfusions, hospitals, and prayers.

My heart rumbles and shakes loose a thread of anger, sadness, loss, injustice and pain. I gaze up at the blue sky, dip into the Pacific, and feel a loss of vitality as the water moves over me. I brood over the sureness that bad things happen to good people. I ask why more fervently than the waves rolling to shore. And then I catch myself. I notice the pattern of frustration and fear overwhelming me whenever someone I love is unwell. I slow down my breathing and look with my eyes at the beauty that surrounds me.

Each moon cycle has a healing energy. For Tammuz, it is to see life as it really is. Not as I wish it to be, or delude myself into thinking that it is; but to actually see clearly. To wipe clean the accumulation of dirt from my vision and open myself to the Truth, with a capital T. I look around with the eyes of my soul and see beauty everywhere. The waves rolling toward me, seaweed floating, fish swimming, the shimmer of sun reflecting, children playing. I slow down my breath and feel an abundance of grace and gratitude. I am alive. I feel the fragility and strength of human life.

I look skyward and search for Tammuz. It isn’t in the sky, but I feel the Divine flow. And for that and for this one moment in time, I am grateful.

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